Don't Know

So, there once a piece of something that I liked to call me. What was that you ask? I thought I knew what that was, but I clearly didn’t. But it didn’t stop me from searching for it. So, that is what I did. Looking back I see that it really didn’t work unless it got me to where I am now.

I thought I knew what I was doing for some time, but it didn’t lead me to a path that I wanted to really be on. See, I thought I was getting to the end. The end of what? The end of having to do things, the end of having to be responsible for myself. It’s a confusing road. They say be here now. So I tried that for some time and that just lead to trying to be here! Haha. And, all I got from that was just added pressure from pushing and trying to be here. If you try and be here all the time,  you just end all rigid and stressed. It doesn’t make that much sense, but it goes like this. What is here is nothing that isn’t moving, and when you try and stop something from moving it causes stress, and that’s that!

So, now I don’t need to try and stop anything. Actually the advice given by the monk that I like is that ‘life is just how it is, sometimes good, sometimes bad and sometimes in the middle.’ So, what can you do about that? Whatever you do or don’t do, life still carries on. Life still carries on. The monk says, watch thought, watch emotion, watch feeling, body movements, feelings, just watch anything that is happening here but within the body and mind. Don’t need to be too aware of what is happening outside of you. Your hand moves to scratch your eye, know this. You blink, know that. You were so worried about something and now the worry is gone. See how something is and then isn’t. Breath, comes and then goes. Anger is different than happiness. They both take their turns coming and going.

How do this stuff all happen. It all happens as a re-action to something else. You see something, and it makes you feel happy. You feel happy and that triggers some other thought, which triggers some other thought; and so on and on.

Every day we try to do many things and create many things, but all of it just comes and goes. One day goes into the next, and it’s impossible to stop life from happening. Good times and bad times, the sun still shine!

Friday, July 24, 2015