idea of satisfaction

Wow! It’s been 9 years already since then. So many humans who have come and gone have probably said something like this. We are here but don’t really know that time passes, seems funny and obvious but true. We look at the mirror every day and see the changes but there is so much denial of age. I wonder why we don’t thoroughly know that everything changes. How many times has fear come into your life, and how many times has it also disappeared. Did it not come and then go? Has the body ever stopped aging and changing? These are things that cannot be change under any circumstances. Why are there even thoughts that deny exactly what is true, bang on what’s true. Things are impermanent, yet we have feeling that things, we, are permanent in some way. Things are constantly changing yet we try to find something stable in it, try and build from it, build from a foundation that is nothing but change Haha, ‘a recipe for dissatisfaction.’

For some time I chased and idea of satisfaction. I had a feeling that there was something solid, something real, and that I could somehow capture that. That’s a popular thing to do. I did it with peace. ‘if you do this that or the other thing you can achieve peace.’ Thought says things like this, but when it’s followed it just leads to nowhere and sometimes makes you even worse off. Why is that? It’s because it’s all based on wanting something. So, you go off and try and to get it. This concept can’t be grasped by the thinking mind because it’s conditioned to think that way. The thinking mind has its limitations, and one is that it doesn’t know the truth of the way things are. Which are that everything is always changing, that there is no real you and that everything to do with the mind and body(meaning all physical forms, stuff) is unsatisfactory due to the first two truths.