The heart sores when it
is free. How wonderful does that feel? You wish then that it can always sore,
but just in that wish is the sign that it’s coming to an end.
When I feel great it’s
easier to be aware and see things dancing around and changing. Now darkness
begins to shroud the area where there was once a light freedom and slowly the
onslaught of the new whack of thoughts taints it. ‘I want the positive but not
the negative.’ Haha. But what can be done about that. That’s how the thinking
is wired. It’s cool how if you look at that from a distance how that’s the
obvious recipe for suffering. On this earth, in the world both good and bad
happens but only good is wanted. So, when bad occurs, there is inevitably going
to be some sort of fight J But, when good appears no one fights that. It’s liked, wanted and
desired to keep going, but I guess that is the fight: wanting it to keep going.
But you never regret feeling happy, you great negative stuff, stuff that arose
from anger or jealousy. But you never regret pleasantness, but you long for
the good times to return.
Both good times and bad
times both come to pass as they must do on this planet. With all our doings,
comings and goings, life just continues on in the way that it does. And in each
of our small head, we fight for things to be the way we think they should be
all the while struggling with the way things are. We don’t want bad and want to
things to be good. It is easiest to see this from a distance. The good monk
recommends that you watch the body and mind as if it’s not yours, and in doing
it this way you will see more clearly that truth of nature. Which is that
everything is coming and going, not by a choice of the individual and that both
the mind and the body are in always in a constant state of changing which makes
it impossible to have a real feeling of stability. Oh man! No stability can be
achieved in this world due to the conditions of nature, so that which we all hold onto is bound, will change. How true
does that sound but makes not one iota of a difference to the way the mind
things.
The mind thinks in a
basically in complete opposition to the way things are. It basis things on a
world that isn’t the way it thinks. Firstly with the idea that you are you and
not something part of nature. For evidence of this look at any part of your
body closely. Firstly, your name is not written on it. Secondly, if you look
into any part you eventually find just cells, and if you keep looking deeper
you’ll find cells that are mostly filled with space haha. So, how can it be
claimed as our own. Then next thing the mind thinks is that there is something
solid, permanent in this world. Take a look at yourself now and all your
surroundings. I can actually guarantee you that nothing, including your body,
is permanent. Your sitting at a table, on a computer, in a room with all sorts
of stuff. Everything will eventually go back into nature where it all came
from. We forget so fast that wood, plastic and metal are just from the earth.
When it’s formed into things, we almost see the object as something separate
from nature. Now, it’s a building! J Sometimes when I watch a kid playing with toys,
it all just looks like different forms of plastic and rubber. Let the good
times roll.
Searching for something
permanent or solid in the mind, body or world only leads to more struggling.
Why? Simply because it can’t be found. It sounds cruel in a way. We were put on
this planet to chase our tales around in circles. Haha. I have been searching
for years and all it got be me was increase pressure but with further
realization of this truth. At first it seems like if you cut out all the bad and
doing only good things will be great. But then it’s realized that all of what I
was calling bad is part of nature, and, although, it doesn’t seem useful it’s
life. When you call something bad it creates division, a me versus something
and the fight begins. Bad can show you the truth just like good. It all comes
and goes, void of a separateness and ultimately unsatisfying.
So, we try to manage
life to try and make it feel substantial in some way. Building a big house from
natural materials to give us a feeling of ‘look at this it’s big and if I call
it mine then I am big too.’
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